this is us

For this post I decided to write about the show This Is Us because I want anyone who doesn’t already watch it to start it. NOW!!

If you don’t know what this show is about, don’t worry i’ll tell you : ) It explains the life story of an ordinary family, showing them as they grow up and flashing back and forth from their past to the present so you can put their life story together piece by piece. Each episode explains a certain event or part of their life, so you are given more and more information as you keep watching.

My entire family started it when it came out and we were all hooked immediately. I was hesitant to start it at first because it seemed like one of those stereotypical ‘mom shows’ that would put me to sleep. I was completely wrong.

It is probably the best show I have ever watched. It is so well written and realistic, and because it’s about a normal family, it’s easy to relate to. There have only been a few seasons, but I am already so emotionally attached to all of the characters (I cry almost every episode) and I clear my schedule to watch it every week.

I love the way the writers set it up because it’s unlike any show i’ve watched. Instead of starting from the beginning and explaining the family’s life as it goes on like a typical show would do, the parts of their lives are intentionally scattered so that we are left wondering why a certain character did something or how something happened. It is so unpredictable and full of twists you would never think of. I hate watching shows or movies where you know exactly what is going to happen at the end. With This Is Us, I always think I know what’s going to happen next but I’m always wrong. The actors are AMAZING and they make it feel like they are a part of my own family. They are so easy to connect to and relate to, which makes the show 10 times better.

If anyone reading this hasn’t watched this show yet, I HIGHLY recommend it because it will change your life and make you want to appreciate all the people you have and live your life to the fullest. I can’t imagine someone watching this show and not liking it. Anyways, sorry for the rant, but I hope those of you who don’t watch it start it!! And I hope you guys are reading this on Thursday and not Wednesday- snow day tomorrow: )


new year new me?

Every time the new year is approaching, I usually feel pressured to have a long list of new years resolutions that will make me a new and better version of myself. Most of the time I follow the resolutions I make for a few weeks and then end up forgetting about them.

This new years was different. I was so excited for 2017 to end that I didn’t even feel the need to make resolutions; the year ending was enough. 2017 was probably one of the worst years of my life, and it seemed to be never ending. A lot of life changing things happened and I learned a lot about myself and others as well, but most of these realizations came from many unfortunate events. I don’t face many hardships in my life, but for some reason 2017 was full of them, coming at me non stop.

Although 2017 was a year of overthinking, regret, and sadness, I did benefit in some way from everything that happened.

I learned to never take anything for granted. Nothing in life is permanent, even the things you could never imagine losing. Cherish everything you have no matter how small and always appreciate what you have because you never know how long it’ll be yours.

I learned that time heals. No matter how much you are hurting, it will get better. Everyone heals in different ways and it might take you longer than most, but you will be happy again. Your pain will not last forever….just give it some time 🙂

I learned that true friends can change your life. Throughout your whole life you are going to encounter mean people, and sometimes those people will be the ones you thought would never hurt you. Once you find friends who truly care about you and your well being, your life will be so much better. You will feel important and loved, as you always should.

I learned to forgive, but never forget. Everyone deserves forgiveness and holding grudges against people is petty and immature. Always forgive them, but never forget how they made you feel. Be wary of those you have to forgive in the first place; some are prone to do it again. Don’t give others the power to control the way you feel because it will often lead to you getting hurt.

And lastly, I learned to be myself.  The people that truly matter will love you for who you are, no matter how weird or messy or sensitive you are. Don’t pretend to be someone you’re not because it will only temporarily benefit you, and playing a part gets old. You shouldn’t have to hide who you are.

Going into 2018, I hope I can remember all that I learned from 2017. I hope that this year is filled with fun and happiness and that I can continue to learn more about myself and become a better person in doing so.

where are you Christmas

Christmas has always been one of my favorite holidays of the year. I love decorating my tree, putting up lights, being with my family, and giving presents! Although I still love it, it’s not nearly as exciting as it used to be.

When I was younger, Christmas Eve was probably the most exciting day of my life. I thought about it all day, wondering what gifts I was going to get the following morning. At night I would lie awake in my bed, listening for any thumps or thuds that would indicate that Santa and his reindeer were on my roof. I always ended up falling asleep before I did. The next morning I would wake up super early, usually around 6 or 7. I would run to my brothers room and wake him up and then go get my sister. We would all sit in my brother’s bed, anxiously waiting for it to be 8:00 AM, the time our parents said was present opening time. As soon as it was 8, we all would run to our parents bedroom and jump on their bed to wake them up.

Every year my dad would film us walking down the stairs and seeing the tree with all of the presents for the first time. Those minutes sitting on the top of the stairs, waiting for him to get his video camera felt like hours. Finally getting to run down the stairs and find which presents were mine was the best feeling.

As soon as I found out Santa wasn’t real, all of the “magic” of Christmas faded away. It was very hard for me and my brother to convince our sister he was real when we both knew he wasn’t. I pretended I was excited as I used to be for her, but it wasn’t the same. When she found out he was real, it became even less exciting. I still loved celebrating the holiday and being with my family, but I wished I had never found out about Santa. Christmas didn’t feel like Christmas anymore.

A while after finding out, I decided to see Christmas as more about giving gifts than getting gifts. I took pride in what I got for my siblings, parents and friends. I didn’t care as much about what I received, but more about what I gave to other people. There is nothing more satisfying than seeing someone love a gift you got them.

Christmas isn’t the same as it used to be, but it’s still a fun holiday. I’m excited for Christmas Break, getting to see extended family, and participating in Secret Santa gift exchanges with my friends, but I still wish I could go back in time to experience Christmas as a little girl again.


This weekend I got my first college acceptance letter!! It was from University of Dayton, which is one of the six schools I have applied to. I’m super excited about hearing back from all my schools, but I’m also nervous because I don’t know if I got in to all of them or got a good amount of money off my tuition. The other schools I applied to are OSU, Indiana University, University of Kentucky, Miami University, and University of Cincinnati. OSU is my #1 choice, and I think I have a good chance at getting into it and the rest of the schools.

Finishing my common app was weird in itself, and getting acceptance letters is surreal. I can’t believe that I’ll be choosing which college I’m going to in a few months. I’m eager to see where I and the rest of the Senior class ends up.

High school has gone by so fast, and as I am excited to leave and have the college experience, it’s gonna be weird being away from home. I don’t know how I’m gonna know when to go to bed, or when to stay in and study instead of going out, or when I need to work out without having my parents there to tell me. I’m also scared about managing my money because I’m an impulsive person, so I tend to spend my money pretty quickly. Hopefully I can learn to use my money wisely and avoid the freshman 15 🙂

wedding szn

This weekend I went to my second cousin’s wedding!!!!!! I literally LOVE weddings. I’ve had parts of my own wedding day planned out for years, and every time I go to one it gives me more ideas about what I want to do for mine 🙂

Well anyways, I was super excited to go to this wedding and also really excited to see all of my family that would be there. To make it even more exciting, my cousin and her husband had been together since the 7TH GRADE. I don’t know how they made it that long but they are perfect for each other and so adorable. Junior High sweethearts??? Try to name something cuter than that. (you cant)

Their ceremony was in the church of the high school they both went to- I bet you didn’t think this could get any cuter- and so many friends and family were there! The reception after was in a banquet hall which was super nice and I had a lot of fun with all of my cousins and the rest of my family that was there.

Side note- Senior lunch starts this week and i’m pumped!! I’ve been looking forward to this for years… even though I’m gonna be broke and end up eating way more Skyline than I need to.



Growing up sucks :(

Last week was my senior night for volleyball. I never realized how quickly this season went by and as I am excited to have more free time, I’m very sad to see it go. I can’t imagine not playing this sport because I’ve done it my whole life.

Ever since I first started playing volleyball I loved it. I had to choose between it and soccer, but the decision was simple. I knew it was what I wanted to do and I’m glad I made that choice. I’ve made so many new friends through this sport, whether it was getting closer with girls at my school or meeting them from other schools at the various club teams, camps, and tryouts I went to.

I’ve played volleyball since the 3rd grade, so the past 10 years have been filled with practices, games, tournaments, tryouts, and camps. Volleyball has been something I could go to when I was sad, stressed, or any emotion in between. It has helped me through so much of my life and has taught me about the person I want to be and has shaped me into who I am today.

I wish I knew how much I’d miss it when I complained about waking up early for tournaments or when I skipped practice because I was too tired. I’d give anything to restart this season, but I know that can’t happen, so I just have to look back on all those years and remember how much fun I’ve had.

Tonight is the first round of tournament play, and I’m hoping we make it far so that this doesn’t have to be the end of my volleyball career. With another last in my life coming to an end, I’m starting to realize that growing up sucks and I wish I never grew up. *Cue Taylor Swift song*

Senya Hoco!!

Sadly, in a week, I will be attending my LAST Homecoming. 😦 You’re probably confused as to why I’m sad about that.

Contrary to most people, I LOVE school dances. I love getting dressed up, taking pictures at the Mariemont concourse, and going to a nice dinner with all of my closest friends.

Most people don’t like homecoming because at the dance they play the same songs every year, the gym is hot and crowded, and the teachers surround the dance floor watching your every move. But, over the years I’ve learned that you just have to make school dances fun for yourself.

Don’t be “too cool” to dance. Standing around the outside of the dance floor or in the commons is just going to make your night worse. Even though most of the music is lame, they play some pretty good throwbacks you don’t wanna miss out on. Take a bunch of pictures in the photo booth, request your favorite songs, and just have fun. You don’t get to go to school dances forever, so why not enjoy them while you can! I mean, how can you complain while dancing with Mr. Block?

Anyways, this year I (somehow) made it onto the homecoming court! I’ve always wanted to be on it but never have until now. My mom is a little too excited about it though…. when she found out she texted my entire family and told me to start “campaigning for queen” because she thinks that’s something people do. If I don’t win she’s gonna be a lot more disappointed than I am. Honestly, I don’t care if I don’t win, I’m just happy I get to sit in a car during the homecoming parade instead of having to walk. 🙂

With another of my “Lasts” happening, I’m realizing how fast my Senior year is going by. My last awkward date-Dad confrontation and last “Cotton Eye Joe” will be bittersweet.

The Test That Defines Your Future

Since my blog is going to consist of what I constantly think about, I thought it would be a good idea to write my first post about what has been on my mind for the past 5 months: the ACT.

The last time I could take the ACT before I needed to submit my college applications was September 9th. I’d been anticipating this test for months, because whatever score I got was what would decide which schools I’m going to get into. That’s A LOT of pressure.

I first took the ACT last March without studying and got a pretty good score. My dream school is OSU, which requires a fairly high score, but I knew that if I studied and did Torch Prep, I would be able to raise it to the score I wanted and have a good chance at getting in. What I didn’t realize early enough was that every weekend that Torch Prep was available during the summer, I had volleyball games. I realized this 2 months before the test.

I was disappointed that I couldn’t do Torch Prep and it made me nervous that all I could do was study on my own. The score I had wouldn’t guarantee that i’d get in, so I needed to raise it. A lot of my other friends had tutors and had time for Torch Prep which made me even more worried.

I did what I could and found websites that had practice tests. I took as many as I could whenever I was free leading up to the last test, in hopes that repetition would help raise my score.

I took the last ACT on Saturday, and walking out of those doors was one of the most relieving moments of my life. I finished every section with time to spare and looking back on it, I think I did well. A huge weight is off my shoulders, but now I’m anxious to see the results that come back in a few weeks…. fingers crossed my score went up!

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